Wow….it's been months that I've not been updating my blog.  Tidak kurang juga yach dengan mereka mereka yang menghina aku sebab tak reti-reti nak update blog setelah sekian lamanya*matila aci mata hazel. 

Bukan aku tak nak update, tapi aku ni sibuk manjang.  Hallo! It's not easy to lead a double life ok.  Not that I am James Bond or anything, but juggling time between work and school is not easy.  Thank god I am not married or anything.

Now it's time for the commercial break…

"Interested? Please email me…. *wink* *wink*"

Since my new role in the company requires me to carry more responsibility and authority, things are getting much worse.  Time especially is very much tricky to manage.  Especially towards the completion of my postgraduate studies ni kan.  Maybe due to stress and things like that, aku masuk sepital. Boleh?  Ini tak kawin, kalau esok dah kawin ke hape ke macam mana?  Belum lagi ada hati nak pasang 2-3 bini kan?  Mau masuk sepital tak leh keluar-keluar dah. 

Nevertheless, things are getting better, health too.  Sakit still sakit but manageable with medications and all.   Mesti korang pelik kan? *matila ada peminat.

Cik Bedah:  Kenapa dengan Putra?

Cik Timah:  Sakit ape eh?

Sheikh Muszaphar:  Awak ni sakit ape ye? *matila angkasawan nak pedulikkan aku…

For the time being, biarlah rahsia, I am not into talking about it just yet as thinking of it makes me feel uncomfortable.  To Fenot and Diana yang dah tahu tu just keep it to yourself.  Maybe someday when I am comfortable to talk about it, baru aku nak story mory ok?

So…

Sejak kuar dari sepital ni, kehidupan ku ini semakin la terlampaunyer.  Sorry ye…bukan menjadi sundal, tapi sandal kepada dunia korporat dan juga dunia pendidikan yer.  Makanya, aku telah menjadi sangat tensi…dengan itu…retail therapy kononnya mampu memberi bantuan motivasi la agar dapat mengharungi kehidupan ku ini seadanya...dengan itu...

With the help of Lan (Diana's hubby), we went to Epicentre @ Pavillion last wednesday  to do our window shopping since I'm on holiday from work that day. Rasaiiiinnnnnn...window shopping la sangat kan...pabila hatiku teruja..makanya poket ku kering jugalah kan...

Ini la hasilnya....Looks so cute in the box kan?

Oh...rupamu sungguh jelita....tapi malangnya...TAK GUNAAAA!!!

It's been a week already, not only I've wasted my money for the machine, also have no idea how to use it.

Therefore, I would like to conclude that retail therapy might help most people, unfortunately not for me....

Gosh…I got tensioned! *matila Vivian

Ok la…sebelum aku sakit kepala lagi..baik aku blah.....

I need to pack my things now, and ready to go home.  See ya!

Adios!

Dear blog,

Firstly I would like to apologise to you for the long pause.   Whoaaaa...it has been almost 8 months ok!  Why lah? As usual the 'alasan' I would give here is my 'jiwa sedang kekacauan'....there are lots of thing happened to me lately and mood to write wasn't there, if I update pun there would be no UMPHHHH to it. 

However, due to my 'kangen' towards the blog, I felt that this would be the right time for me to update.  Sorry to Fenot the wonderful kelakar mummy! for nagging me, so here it is...keep nagging so that I can update more often for you, ok?

Anyway, my life has been very unlucky lately.  After one incident leads to another, my life has'nt been very well.  Let's begin the story in chronological order..

Being Jobless

After the 'bergaduh' incident with the boss, I left the company and being full time student for many months ok *matila many 7 bulan...  Since then I have shifted my attention to my studies and classmates.  Life was not lonely anymore since they love to camp at my lair to do assignments.   Ye la kan, last semester was a hectic one since assignment ada banyak gile.  Besides them DD also continues to be the best buddy ever, practically she lives with me (FYI, soon after I left the company, she also berhenti....miss me eh?).

The sad thing was, the friendship that was built on trust and care 'telah dihancurkan dengan kejam sekali'.  Maybe I'm not really lucky in friendship, no matter how hard I tried to keep the friendship with my classmates, things became the other way round.  Remember in my previous post? I used to be close this one gal (from this point on I would refer this gal as 'the gal') in the class?  I dunno why, suddenly she turned cold on me.  Suddenly ok....there's nothing happened, nak kata bergaduh tak jugak, salah cakap lagi la tak.  She never answered my call or return them after she got back from her birthday holidays.  Tapi tak pe la, so....life still goes on....life remains busy with assignments and job hunting...

Studies

My studies for the past few months/semester was really good.  I managed to secure 4.00 CGPA/GPA.......and....taraaaa.....accidently, I also completed my dissertation in less than 2 month....great. 

In summary, I have no problems academically.  Alhamudulillah.

Friends

As the previous paragraphs, I've been making friends with my classmates and the relationship has been closer as the time flew.  It was nice to have friends sometimes, we exchanged stories and experience among ourselves. 

However, like the famous malay proverb says, 'hoping for the sun to shine, but raining in the afternoon', soon after the semester ends, our friendship was being tarnished just like that.  Maybe it was my fault, partly I admit.  Why? Because of money la...due to being unemployed for quite sometime, the classmates was curious and asked how I managed to continue live my life lavishly.  The secret was, the internet scam investment lahhh!!! At first things mmg la ok...pakcik kayo la beberapa bulan, untungnya setiap minggu mmg lebih dari gaji aku sebulan.  Therefore, one of the classmate was tempted, and gave her money to me.  Again, as the malay proverb would describe, 'one cannot smell their unluckiness', the internet investment thing got stuck.  All my money and the classmate money gone.  She also started to ask for her money back.  However, I assured her that I would return her money back when I have the money.

One unlucky day, while I was finishing my writing of the dissertation paper, the classmate called and sent me messages few times asking about the money.  Since the phone was upstairs and I'm downstairs doing my work, of course la I didn't answer them...*matila telinga pekak.  When the time I went upstairs and check on my phone, there were 20 misscalls and 10 messages from her.  The reason was, the money la of course.  So...I texted her back saying....

"Waalaikumsalam, sorry la 'X', aku pun tak dapat duit tu, so...aku tak leh bayar ko"

Then the misunderstanding between us dragged....

Less than 30 seconds after that, she called...

"Haa...apasal ko tak jawab tepon aku?  Ko jangan buat macam ni kat aku, aku nak duit aku balik...sape ko nak cakap dengan aku macam ni...ko ingat aku sapa?" she was being hostile

Being me that tak boleh kena tengking kan...."Ye la, aku pun tak dapat aku nyer dividend, so macam mana aku nak bayar ko? Sorry la aku tak leh nak bayar ko..."

She continued...

"Ko jangan macam tu, ko dah janji...aku ada saksi bile ko cakap nak bayar balik kalau jadi apa apa kat duit tu" still sound like very garang lah....

"Aku tak boleh bayar ko...sbb aku tak de duit...sorry lah" I sangatlah garang waktu tu...ye la kan....tak tidur punya pasal sbb 'ghairah' nak siapkan dissertation tu kan.....

Lepas tu apa jadi?  I slammed the phone and didn't answer her calls ever since.

Things had been complicated ever since, because of the misunderstanding, she called other classmates and whined about it, I suspected la.

Then, that very night 'the gal' that I talked about in previous paragraphs, suddenly called.  With hati yang berbunga aku jawablah....as 'one cannot smell the unluckiness', she had 'maki' me all out as she claimed that I've been telling bout herself to our lecturers and she didn't like it.  Ah...bilakah itu?  Ah...sangat la sedition itu....*matila sedition act

The 'firing' telephone call lasted less than 2 minutes, and I couldn't defend myself as she wouldn't listen my side of story at all.  Penangan Miss 'X' begitu hebat rupanya.

Needless for me to explain in detail, in short, after some investigation, the whining classmate has made some stories about the money and also some other things seasoned by ajinomoto. 

I couldn't sleep that night and tried to 'musabahah' myself, I decided to keep myself quiet over the matter and cash some money out and pay off Miss 'X'.  Pagi-pagi buta lagi I've made the call to her for a rendezvous....

"Macam ni la kawan aku, bagus putra bagus...." Miss 'X' so the sounded like ketua kongsi gelap....*matila kena pukul lepas ni

During the rendezvous, we did clarify many things and the problem between me and 'The Gal' was also being discussed.  According to Miss 'X', she knew it all along as 'The Gal' did consult with Miss 'X' and another classmate which I am very close with.  Again, I am speechless.  How could they kept such secret from me, I knew this matter earlier, the friendship with 'the gal' could be remedised. 

Eventhough, Miss 'X' and me eventually apologised to each other – we smiled as we departed.  Since then, the way I look at her and the rest which was once I called 'My Bestfriends' wasn't the same again. 

If you gals read this, despite of the 'keterlukaan yang amat menusuk kalbu', I really miss you gals especiall the quick fag session during maghrib breaks at the staircase and the doing assignment together at my lair.

I miss you gals, I really do.....wish if I have special power like one of Heroes character, boleh tukar tukar time kan....*matila feeling ada power....hehhehhehe...sape ntah suka berangan nak Rogue X-Men semata mata nak goda jantan....

Anyways, the semester goes on, and times flying by very fast, just that this time around, I am very low profile.  Imagine that? Me quiet???? Better believe it ok....

Working again

After few month unemployed and pennyless,  habis segala gunung dan lurah ku lewati untuk menampung kehidupan ku....after hundreds of interviews *matila exaggerate I attended, the luck started to kicking back in August.  Lama kannn?????? (please sebut dalam hati dalam intonasi yang sengau seperti Jasmin Hamid)  

In short, the offer is good and the money is also very good.  I am happy again.  Therefore, I am leading a double life all over again, siang keje malam gi kelas.  Disebabkan oleh kesibukan yang amat sangat, akhirnya aku demam dan melepek selama dua hari.  Besok MC lagi....*matila melepek, tapi ada masa update blog...

That's all for now folks, I will continue in the next update soon..... Tungguuuu tau! (nada sengau please)

Hey guys,

Sorry for the long pause.  Maklumlah aku ni kan mempunyai dua kehidupan yang berbeza kini - as a student and as an employee.  Life has been very busy lately, mana tak nya keje dah semakin banyak and I have to make time so that I wouldn't miss any of my classes.  Sekarang ni keluar umah pagi buta....balik dah tengah malam, pastu sambung buat assignment pulak.  I wonder how those PLK students managed their life kan? especially with kids and all.  Aku ni ala ala ada kucing sekor pun dah macam orang gile nak managed life aku yang sememangnya dah gila ni kan?  There's only one choice sekarang ni.  Aku kena berhenti keje and fully concentrate on my studies.  However, kalau aku belajar jer tanpa bekerja mana aku nak cari duit untuk support kehidupan aku yang penuh materialistik innew?? Tambahan pula supplements ubat kurus aku juga sangatlah costly yach *matila dadah....

Anyway, the recent series of unfortunate events happened to me, makes me more wanting to leave the job.  You know why?? Let me story mory you guys ok....oh yes....benda yang berlaku tu pun contribute to my mood to write in this blog it seems macam terpadam ok....bak api lighter yang semakin mengecil *matila kena pukul dengan DD lepas ni....

My work sekarang ni.....it's getting horrible horrendous and atrocious ok!  Keje dah semakin banyak and boss pulak macam sial.  The atrocities makes me unhappy and its getting to affect my studies as well. 

From my blog title itself also dah sebut OG (Orang Gile) which I am referring to my boss.   Walaupun dia seorang lelaki yang berbatang tapi emosi mengalahkan orang yang mempunyai memek yang telah lama tidak disentuh.  This may sound a bit obscene but I believe that all my readers are matured enuff.  Aku mmg bengang gile, oleh kerana dia ini mempunyai angin yang sangatlah tsunaminya.  Hujan tarak Angin tarak teriba hangen tak tentu pasal kan.  Like the incident happened yesterday (I was on MC anyway, and attended a seminar in the university), walaupun aku tak datang keje, tapi aku ada ramai informer ok....yang memberitahu aku akan kejadian atau peristiwa penting yang berlaku di office.   You know lah, or don't know, which every saturday aku still kena bekerja seperti bangla kaann....and that particular day of the week is purposively made as meeting.  Lets make things short, my colleague at the office told me that OG had make some remarks on my absence.  Siap buat muka ok....dia nak cari pasal dengan aku ke?  Pastu ada la dua accounts yang aku nak drop since there's no use for me to service as there's no way they're gonna buy things from us as salah satu sebabnya, company yang aku keje ni tak carry the product extensively as we do not benefit the special pricing from the principal, nak tau awat?? sbb kami jual barang competitor la.....  Another reason was that the account juga mempunyai incumbent yang sangat kuat di sana.  Makanya buat apa aku buang masa kan?  Plus masa kat Cameron ari tu, si OG tu jugak yang suruh aku focus on strategic customer kan?  Motifff???? *matilah anak babi....

Then since aku nak drop kedua dua account tu, dia ala ala penuh hangin serta bermata merah *matilah statement Anna terus assigned the accounts to new reps.  Motiff?  Pastu siap keluarkan remarks yang aku tak jumpa pun customer tu.  Aku penah pegi sekali jer, and then aku ala ala recce thru kawan kawan aku on strategic plans that both of the accounts are planning for their future IT needs.  Since ada incumbent yang sangat strong macam mana ko nak selit kan?  Melainkan ko berbaik baik dengan incumbent itu.  Masalahnya aku juga tidak mengenali sesiapa di incumbent ittew.  And some more, he also rejected my idea of partnering with this particular company to participate in an open tender.  Motif?? Masalahnya aku dah ada insider information including budgeting and products information plus segala galanya yang aku perlu to win the bid.  The thing is, which made me more liver pain, is that he didn't even have any single idea that I have all the information, ala ala terus oppose the idea.  Tapi aku tak kira, aku nak buat jugak tender tu, sbb opportunitynyer sangat bagus. 

Tapi kan the whole afternoon yesterday was filled of kesakitan hati yang menusuk and to get over it, aku kena mengemas rumah serta menukar segala bedsheet and comforter yang ada di segala bilik in the house.  Rajin la pulak kan? selalunya aku tunggu mak aku datang kan and do all the cleaning work lah kan?  After that, I even called my favourite diva (mak aku lah) and seek for her consultation.  Nak tau diva tu cakap ape?  Here it goes....

"Dia (referring to my boss) tu ingat dia tu hebat sangat ke?  Anak siapa dia tu?  So unprofessional, which idiot hired him in the first place?  If you don't like your staff ke ape ke, just cakap professionally la and suruh orang tu berubah...Anyways, if you cannot tahan lagi, just leave the company, pasal rumah tu tak payah pikir, mama bayar..."

I answered..."He's nobody la, just that he has the capital and few years of experience in distributor level company....so ok ke I berhenti ni?"

"Up to you....tapi jangan complaint dengan mama yang you tak de duit la itu la ini la.  Hahhh!! Bile dapat gaji?"

Dengan penuh reluctantly aku menjawab "Hari isnin, and boleh tak mama bayar umah bulan ni? so that I can spend the extra money to buy books"

"Hmm...I suspected so already.  Dapat gaji je terus tender resignation tau!"

The conversation ended macam tu jer.  Anyway, thanks to my mom for being so supportive walaupun kadangkala sedikit kedekut.

So, next week, I try to finish up my pending work and then submit that damn resignation letter to that asshole.  Anyway you guys, please also doakan kesejahteraan and my rezeki tomorrow as I am going to an interview at this MNC company.  Hopefully the hiring manager will hire me.  Harus kena esah kan diri malam ini occay....

Ok, that's all for now, kengkadang terasa malu ok nak cerita my miserable life here.  But what to do, suka ati aku la kah?? THIS IS MY BLOG!!! AND I CAN HAVE THE FREEDOM TO DO WHAT EVER I WANT TO DO HERE OK.....

hehehehe.....teremosi kejap....

so....Adioss......

It’s been quite sometime already for me not updating my blog.  So, since I am in the mood of writing with full of enthusiasm, I shall write about food.  Why lah?? You want to know why? Because I cannot eat lah, and I only can dream of eating my favourite food.  Kiranya aku mengidam la nih….

I’ve just met my orthodontist and got my braces fixed.  Since the orthodontist changed the wire to the harder ones so, the pain is harder lah.  I felt like all my teeth are moving and the sore is unbearable lah.  Oh yes, since chics told me that I would look cute if I change my modules (getah yang mengikat besi braces tu lah) to red… Am I cuter now? I know I am *matila perasan model gigi lepas ni…

Back to my story mory today.  Memandangkan aku sangat bosan di opis oleh kerana semua orang telah bercuti raya haji ni….aku pun create la alasan pada boss aku mengatakan aku ada meeting kat luar*matila menipu masuk neraka.  Yang kejinya boss aku tu, siap gave me the look ok.  Dia suka berperangai keji kepada setiap staff yang dia ada.  For the past few weeks, adalah DD mangsanya.  Kini tiba masanya aku pula.  Mampos la dia.  I just close one eye and make donno.  Pastu aku blah jer tanpa memandang ke belakang lagi.  Jika tidak aku akan berasa bersalah bukan?

Sampai jer rumah aku ala ala mandi dan kemudian tidur…..yess…..salah satu kerja yang paling aku suka….Di antara tidur dengan tak tidur tu pulak….aku leh pulak terpikir pasal makanan yang aku suka.  Boleh tak?? 

Aku ingat dulu la masa aku kecik kecik dulu la….around 9-12 tahun gitu, makanan ruji aku tak lain dan tak bukan aku suka gile makan nasik putih dengan telur goreng hancur dengan tomato sauce.  Itu je la yang aku makan…..tak kira la apa benda yang mak aku masak sedap sedap tidak lagi dipandang ok…bayangkan beberapa tahun tu.  Tak pulak aku jemu….dan kemudian mesti diaccompanykan dengan milo ketul ketul.  Apa tu?? Milo tu dibancuh dengan air ais pastu letak susu pekat cap junjung.  Haaaa…..kick dia tak boleh cakap ok!  Mak aku dulu cukup benci dengan selection of food aku…especially part telur hancur bertomato tu…..nak tau kenapa?  Sbb dia busuk bau kentut ok….masa tengah suka kan….bau kentut pun leh bau wangi kan….tapi kalau bagi aku makan benda alah tu sekarang mungkin aku tak mo dah….tak lalu….macam muntah pun ada aku tengok.

Bile aku masuk sekolah menengah…aku still suka jugak dengan milo ketul ketul tu ok….aku leh menelan benda alah tu aje.  Benda lain? Aku tak berapa ingat la pulak *matila STML  tapi aku rasa aku still suka jugak la dengan telur goreng hancur bertomato tu.  Then masa aku form 4 cam tu…..aku terkena penyakit misteri…

Apa?? Malam diselubungi misteri?? Bukan laa….penyakit misteri…..Apa penyakitnya deknon?? Aku tak leh makan nasik…Yess….aku jadi melayu tak sedar diri sekojap.  Bile aku makan nasik je aku montah….makan jer nasik aku montah…..then aku makan roti jer la….roti pulak cicah dengan milo panas.  Itu jer la…..sampai la aku masuk universiti…..masa kat universiti pulak aku just makan mcdonalds atau pun KFC hari hari….yer…itu la makanan ruji aku….mana taknya bagai dipam pam ok badan aku masa tu….berat naik 83kg. *matila blue hippo saripah aini.  As I remembered, masa tahun 2001 kot…aku ala ala demam yang teruk…ala ala 2 minggu demam…dan aku tak makan for so many days….and aku tak de selera for many many weeks….terus turun berat badan 20 kg.  Kurus kering kejap macam tu macam jerangkungs.  Tak silap aku, berat aku continued to drop until berat aku jadi 53 kg.   Ntah macam mana lepas tu aku start gemuk atas dorongan abang badak.  *matila kena pukul lepas ni... Mana taknya hari hari asik melantak 30 kali. 

Citer pasal milo kan.....aku mmg suka milo....aku rasakan...aku dibesarkan dengan minum milo....pasal tu kot aku sembelit manjang...Cuma lately ni jer aku kurang minum milo..sbb apa? Sbb kemalasan yang melampau lampau.....yer la...aku malas nak bancuh milo...hahaha...Tahun 2004 aku pegi Jakarta tau....tak disangka sangka....kat sana ada jual susu pekat cap junjung perasa coklatttttttt........sedaps sangattt......bancuh jer dengan air sejuk pun sodap....nak tau aku beli bape tin??? 12 tin penuh beg baju aku ok......menggeleng kepala abang kastam kat airport tu.  Sedap ok.....bile la agaknya aku nak gi Jakarta lagi yer?

Since waktu dah maghrib ni...mood untuk aku menulis tidak lagi ada ni....aku ingat aku nak buat la roti toast dengan garlic butter serta telur goreng tu...tapi gigi aku sakit lagi.....adakah patut aku makan maggi sajork?? Waaaa..........

I need a huggg.......

Adios....

Yessssaaaaaa Putra Oliviere De Gestapo kembali lagi menyinari blog yang kusam lagi bersawang innnisss....*motif?

Seperti yang dijanjikan yakni hari rabu, akan ku hapdatekan blog ku innew.  Yes, mari kita mulakan dengan perjalanan diriku ini ke Kem Askar di Taiping!.  Apa?? Taiping?? Of all places Taiping?? What the hell??? *matila paksu kampungnya di mana tatau...  Yer, kisahnya bermula apabila aku bertolak dari ofis bersama dengan technician yang sangat baik hati lagi hardworking.  Kita orang bertolak dari ofis pukul 8.30 pagi...dan sampai ke kem askar ittew pada pukul 11 pagi.  Kiranya cepat jugak la sampai...mana idaknya aku tekan minyak sampai 150 km/j.  Saman polis nanti tatau la berapa banyak nanti nak kena bayar.  Actually aku tak berapa suka nak pegi sbbnya ianya sangat jauh, dan aku tidak ada wang.  Bayangkan yer...dengan hanya 50 hengget aku berjaya sampai ke taiping, siap boleh makan-makan lagi..... 

Pertama kalinya dalam sejarah aku berkerja, aku merasa buat kerja macam kuli buat jalan tu ok.  Customer melayani aku seperti aku ni kuli batak.  Semua kerja aku kena buat, nasib baik technician tu ada.  Actually aku boleh suruh jer technician tu buat, tapi kesian la kan...aku pun tolong sekali.  Panasnyer, MasyaAllah....tak mo pegi dah.  Dalam kol dua lepas lunch berbekalkan duit 50 hengget tu, terus balik KL.  By 5 o'clock I am already back in the office. 

Sampai je ofis, terus yer pegi bank mengeluarkan duit claim yang baru masuk ittew.  Half dah bayar utang credit card, lagi half nak buat?? *buat projek apa tatau DD? 

Let's talk about today, hmm...nothing much actually.  Boss tak de gi Langkawi ada conference, so hora la kan?? apa lagi....so...the whole morning today, I focused on 3 proposals that I have to submit to my beloved customer esok di Putrajaya.  Hopefully proposal yang aku beri itu nanti aku mendatangkan rezeki untuk tahun depan.  By lunch time, colleague aku yang terchentah *you know who you are bawak aku gi lunch kat TTDI Shah Alam tu.  Food was ok, but the kedai sangat menguji kesabaran ok...dah la ramai orang...pastu panas dia...Ya Allah...tidakkk....!!!!  Sejam jugak la aku bersabar.  By 2.30 kita orang dah sampai ofis.  Yang bestnya ala ala 30 minit di ofis.....aku blah pulak....cakap dengan secretary yang macam hanjenggg ittew kata aku pi putrajaya jumpa customer.  Tapi aku pegi interview dengan head hunter boleh?? Hehehe....*matila aku lepas ni chics kata aku gelap mata.  The opportunity given was very very good.  But I don't know whether I can cope with my studies ke tidak.  Sbb it requires a lot of time ok.  Takut nanti tak de masa nak belajar.  Remember in my previous entries, that I kept stressing on my studies prorities.  Kerja setakat untuk memberikan aku lebih wang yach...

Esok pun aku ada interview dengan company KellyNg ni....tapi kononnya international status...Emerio katanya.  Malas la nak pegi, tapi pegi jer la dari  tak buat apa kat opis.  By tengah hari masuk ofis semula....buat buat rajin...then petang gi customer for the proposals. 

Petang ni aku sampai rumah awal jugak la, around 6 aku dah sampai.  Lepak lepak dengan colleague sampai la ni haaahhh...but ok la...she is a good company.  Tak bosan ok...Lepak sampai besok pun boleh....hahahaa....

Ok...aku dah kena hamun dengan dia sbb focus kat blog aku ni....yer la nanti korang cakap aku memberikan janji janji pelesu right?? *matila wig paksu ilang.

Makanya dengan itu, aku ingin berundur diri.

Dengan pose yang sangat macho dan sexy....(jap jap...bukak butang baju dulu, tunjuk dada berbulu) "Bye....Adios"